growing up

my kids have all grown up
or some days so it seems
and it won't be that long
til they fly off on open wings

there are times when I just
can't believe how they've grown
and when I see how they've handled
certain issues I'm blown

away by the fact that they
did it so well
and where did it come from
I just cannot tell

but I know that deep down inside
each of them resides the stuff
that will help them survive
when the going gets rough

and watching them change and
grow each passing day
is such bittersweet joy
I hardly know what to say

letting go

letting go
don't you know
it still hurts me so
my feelings I try not to show
so each day my feelings I stow
I hope that this is good, even though
I am afraid-what will we reap? what did we sow?
and pray that through all this you will only grow
and learn to rise above the mediocre and the status quo
each day my head says yes but each beat my heart still says no.